Adventure of a Fatty Princess

Thus far I have lost about fifteen pounds. It seems like it has taken me forever but I am happy with the results. I have been trying to get into running, lately and although I am extremely slow I surprisingly enjoy it. I have been using Pinterest for motivation as well as tumblr which helps tremendously! 

Up to this point, I have spent my life making excuses as to why I am overweight. The reality of it is that I am because I let myself be. I am twenty-one and I have never really lived my life because I dread the way I look and I am embarrassed. Sure, I have “tried” to get in shape, exercise, and eat healthy but not really. Last August, I began the HCG diet. It was difficult but I lost roughly twenty-three pounds after about six weeks. It was exciting, but I soon went back to my old habits. Slowly, I began to gain the weight back due to drinking with my friends over breaks and eating really shitty food all of the time. I stopped weighing myself daily and eventually I completely ignored the scale. Procrastination has always been my main shortcoming and this time was no different.

So, here I am once more trying to break the vicious cycle that has plagued me for fifteen years. My goal is no longer to just “be skinny” I want to lose the weight once and for all. I want to be able to live my life the way I want. I want to go places and not worry about the ever-present fat roll and double chin. I want my personality to be the main focus. 

I had the idea to create a blog as a tool to make me more aware of the fact that I desperately need to do something about being fat. I have never told ANYONE my weight or what size of jeans I wear. These numbers prove far too painful to even tell my closest of friends. So, my goal is to commit to this blog and myself. I have until May 18, 2012 to finally shed a minimum of sixty-five (you read that correctly 65) pounds. I have a trip planned to go to the beach with friends, a trip that we have always talked about but have never taken, which I need to be in the best shape of my life for.

This journey is not only about living a physically healthy life, but it is also about being mentally and emotionally healthy. I want to be happy and find love within myself. You always hear that you have to love yourself before anyone else can love you. I think that is somewhat true. I believe that you cannot be truly happy until you are happy with who you are.

Tomorrow, I WILL wake up and go for a long walk. I WILL exercise. I WILL finally lose the weight that has kept me down for so very long. And maybe I will share my weight…but not today fore I haven’t enough courage. 

“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.” Buddha